I’m ridiculously bored these days. Trying to find my balance. When daylight savings time end it can be quite the challenge. Last Winter after work all I wanted to do was run home and stay home. Living alone though it gets lonely and it stays that way unless I take action. Last Winter I came to this realization the hard way. Eh, we live we learn, we get up off our asses and call people. Stop living in fear. After all it’s a shitty place to live. I want better for myself.
I’ve said “I want to meet someone. I want a relationship” so many times I’ve no clue what the hell it means to be in one. What I had with Derek was good while it lasted. I do want companionship though.
I heard something at a meeting last night that’s sticking with me. “Water finds it own level.” Essentially meaning, like attracts like. Of course in order to figure out who I’m attracting I have to see how it is (and what it is) I’m projecting in the first place. In my own fantasyworld though I feel as if what I’ll attract is exactly what I want. (jude rolls eyes)
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